It really is just always everything all the time I guess 🐝

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So, I've written posts and then nuked posts and then republished them and then rewritten them and then nuked them again and then started over... a lot of fucking times, for a blog that's only existed about 4 and a half months (at time of writing.)

There's a lot of reasons for this.

Often it's embarrassment, feeling like whatever I wrote was misunderstood.

Sometimes it's anger, feeling like whatever I wrote was misunderstood.

Sometimes it's shame, feeling like what I wrote was understood, and... perhaps I shouldn't have written it. Some of those are not going to ever go back up.

Sometimes I'm just a dumbass, y'know?

But this is the archive. This is where I'm going to put those posts-of-the-past that I feel like I want people to have access to, as a record of who I was once.

Can't promise this page will stay up. Can't promise the posts here will stay here. If I could predict my own feelings, I'd have a lot less problems.

Anyway. Sorry for the long intro.

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i wanna dance a little longer
21st Jul, 2025

streak
15th Jul, 2025

21-ish hours later
14th Jul, 2025

proving myself wrong
13th Jul, 2025

okay that was probably a little too much (squints at label) verochka for 3am
2nd Jul, 2025

ash and clay
29th Jun, 2025

little gestures
24th Jun, 2025

systems
24th Jun, 2025

home is where the heart is, pt2 (a mild episode of cardiac arrest)
22nd Jun, 2025

home is where the heart is (and I can't find your pulse)
19th Jun, 2025

temporal snapshot
17th Jun, 2025

understand?
16th Jun, 2025

quite dumbass post with very important content warning
15th Jun, 2025

puppy
8th Jun, 2025

poetry 2
2nd Jun, 2025

poetry 1
31st May, 2025

Soulmates
28th May, 2025

Proceed with care
26th May, 2025

Aggregate
23rd May, 2025

Uninteresting
22nd May, 2025

Not all is as it seems
20th May, 2025

~ Let you be you, and me be me ~
20th May, 2025

Contentment
17th May, 2025

Distraction
15th May, 2025

Breathing in the dark
13th May, 2025

Kibō - 希望 - Hope
9th May, 2025

New experiences
6th May, 2025

Dance away with me
3rd May, 2025

lighthouse & sparkle
1st May, 2025

The boy who steals houses
30th Apr, 2025

temperance
30th Apr, 2025

To all the words I've written before
29th Apr, 2025

Three programming languages walk into a bar...
28th Apr, 2025

Compound
27th Apr, 2025

rage and similar things
25th Apr, 2025

walkies, pt 2.1
22nd Apr, 2025

walkies, pt 2
22nd Apr, 2025

on zombie cliches in media
21st Apr, 2025

walkies
19th Apr, 2025

hope; part 2? (stalwart automaton)
18th Apr, 2025

hope; part one: closure and company
18th Apr, 2025

Love as a Verb
16th Apr, 2025

new-post
15 Apr, 2025

Mosaic, Gestalt, Chimera
13th Apr, 2025

event horizon
12th Apr, 2025

candles & resolutions & wood shavings all over my floor
12th Apr, 2025

recursive loop
11th Apr, 2025

Consistency & Certainty
10th Apr, 2025

Soliloquy
5th Apr, 2025

Words
4th Apr, 2025

Sweet Obscenities
3rd Apr, 2025

Retroactive
2nd Apr, 2025

Malleable
29th Mar, 2025

untitled
28th Mar, 2025

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